Life gets in the way

Someone recently reminded me that life is never easy. It's insane,  stressful,  and does what it can to toss you around.  Lately, it's been getting in the way of my writing. 

Not that I've stopped.  It's just hard to juggle deadlines with emergencies popping up at every corner and stress wracking your body. Writing time interrupted by trips to doctors or when you physically can't stand to reach your notebook. A peaceful day interrupted when you start bleeding all over the place.

But I'm trying to keep going.  My daily word counts are smaller but at least I've written something.  Right now, the struggle is keeping my mind from staying in one place. My thoughts and ideas are frazzled and all over the place. Which I then stress about and feel worse.

Stress is the enemy.  I need to figure a way to combat it.

Pressing On

Thankfully, the Muse has not abandoned me. She's just decided to plague me with more ideas. While I wanted to dedicate all my time to submitting The Resurrected Thief and writing Fae & Fog, she feels I should be doing a bit more than that.

Both are still happening. But I've also started on the beginnings of two new fantasy books. I have little more than openings and outlines for each one. Working on multiple projects at once isn't too bad when there are no solid deadlines in sight. It just causes issues when the deadlines do appear on the horizon. And who knows when publishers will want to open the doors.

I am trying to avoid stressing myself too much with those thoughts. For now, I just want to keep writing. If I stay on schedule, I can have two new novels finished by the end of the year. The goal was to finish Fae & Fog by June, but that's flexible now. It's looking like I'll have the first half of two books completed by then instead. Which isn't really a bad thing, now is it?

WIP Wednesday!

It's always exciting to see how a project comes along. I've been working hard at Fae & Fog while submitting The Resurrected Thief. It was supposed to be a serial of about ten parts detailing Esther's time in Eastern Europe. Here's a little snippet of the scene I'm working on now:

“Why did you come to the graveyard? What did you see?” she questioned him. Keeping her voice level proved difficult. 

 “I have an interest in the more unique aspects of the fae. Earlier, I detected a strange magic and pursed it without delay. It brought me to the church, where I saw you,” Arthur replied in a crisp voice.

Into the second part, I started getting some new ideas. In a lot of my work, characters spend a good deal of their time researching. They have to read and investigate clues and records. Sometimes, this can slow down the action. This was getting more than problematic in Fae & Fog. But! The Muse and I came up with a little fix. 

The plot and mystery has not changed at all. Only the structure. It won't be a serial anymore, but a full length novel. I don't want to give too much of the twists away at this point. But I'm a lot more excited about it now. 

Since I love the serial format, I am a little let down it won't be published that way anymore. I do intend on writing more serials in the future. Ebooks are really expanding this new format, and I love it. Though, just in case, Fae & Fog can always be reverted into a serial. Just in case the publishers aren't as excited about my new ideas as I am. Or maybe they prefer serials! 

Coming to the End

I both love and hate coming to the end of a project. Doesn't matter if it's finishing editing, writing, plotting, whatever. I get all twitchy at the end.

It's a combination of excitement and nerves. I'm happy to be done, and happy to start something new. Then the nerves about what will happen with the finished project. We're working on the nerves, slowly but surely.

The Muse is currently flittering between three different ideas. Since my first solid deadline is in two months, I'm indulging her a bit. All three are for shorter fiction with rather large gaps in the outline. In the next few weeks, I'll try to control her a bit more. She's just struggling to settle into one plot line. Poor Esther is going through three different tribulations at the same time as a result.

Most of the time, I work better with solid deadlines. I have one set for myself at the end of February. But 10,000 words by then should be easy. Once the Muse settles down. Outlining is helping quite a lot. I used to never outline more than a few half formed ideas scribbled in margins. Now I have outlines for most everything. It helps me when the Muse decides to bounce ahead in the story. I can outline it now and then finishing writing the rest when she returns.

But I'm happy with how my projects are coming along. Lots of high hopes for 2016!

Something Slightly New

For the new year, I thought I might try and new way of organizing my schedule. I tried it a few years ago, and it sorta work. I'm sure it would have worked better if I stuck to it. Which I will this time!

As ever, I have my year long calendar hanging from the wall with deadlines highlighted. Some are real, some are self imposed. I then mark off each day with the color corresponding to each series. Green for the Gaslight Hunters, Red for Black and Redd, Blue for the unnamed fantasy, and purple for the shorter works. This is more for my own curiosity. I want to see how much time each project requires. I also want to keep track of when I write the most and when I edit the most.

Next, is a blank notebook with one purpose only. Outlining my time. It might sound rather simple, but it helps me tremendously. The first page is the list of all the projects I want to finish this year, which are then ranked by "importance". Not that any story isn't important, but some are better along than others. I told myself I'd finish a totally new novel by the end of the year. This will help me when I finally am ready to start that. Right now, I'm guessing it will be in the late spring or early summer.

As discussed before, submitting to agents is the top priority right now. I have list of top agents and am working through it. I'm also trying to fit in a few shorts for new markets. And all that time waiting for responses means time to keep writing.

The list helps me pick what to write next. Book 2 of both the Hunters and Redd and Black are fully outlined and have the first chapter written. I keep stalling on doing more because I simply don't know which one will get picked by agents first. Then of course, what if neither do? That's why I'm trying to outline the fantasy series in my down time.

As of right now, I think I have everything fairly well balanced. We all know that could change at any second. This time, I have contingency plans for both successes and failures. I'm so excited for 2016, despite the rather bumpy start.

Non-Stop

How do you write like you're running out of time? Write day and night like you're running out of time. How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive? How do you write like you need it to survive? How do you write every second you're alive?

Like the vast majority of the Internet, I have been drawn into the incredible musical HAMILTON. I'm not normally one for hip hop and rap, but I love it. The above passage comes from the song "Non-Stop", where the ensemble remarks on how Hamilton can't stop himself from writing and writing.

For obvious reasons, it really struck me. Especially "How do you write like you need it to survive". Because that's why I do this. I need my writing to stay alive. (Another fun Hamilton reference!) I've seen a lot of writers reference this line, most notably Kameron Hurley. I really admire how much she has done in her writing. Lately I find myself looking to her blog for some reassurance that anything is possible in publishing.

Because I once again am setting high goals of myself. I'm seizing every opportunity that comes my way. While I'm still working on the balance between wild submissions and my sanity, I don't want to miss out on anything again. I really feel both my books are at their best right now. I'm proud of them and proud of myself. So I'm spending the first half of 2016 on agent submissions while building up the supporting books, shorts, and novellas.

But I'm no stranger to rejection. If I can't get any further, I'm going to try and switch gears. Not abandon the novels. Never! Simply start a new one and then push that on agents. I'll still send out the Victoriana when I can after that, but it won't be as wild as it is right now.

I just need a way to get my foot in the door. I know where I want to be at the end of this year. It's a feasible goal, but requires non-stop work. I'm ready for it. Honestly, I can almost taste it.  

Writing Tips: Don't Get Sick!

Never ever ever get sick when you're writing. It's the worst thing in the world. Your brain is too muddled with all the aches and pains to focus on any words. You stare at the same page for two days straight, because you can't focus on getting to the next line.

I have two huge deadlines in January. This fever is trying its hardest to stop me. I refuse to let it. But at the same time, all I want to do is sleep. As a result, everyone in this scene is cranky. Maybe it could work. If only I could think straight.

The Wars in the Stars

Like most people this weekend, I spent my time with Star Wars. First, this will be a spoiler free post. This movie is incredible and everyone deserves that experience. So go see it right now! NOW!

I just have one little thing I want to share about it.

Rey is perfect. She's everything I wanted as a kid seeing Star Wars. When I was a wee child, my parents took me to see New Hope in one of those $1 afternoon screenings at the local theater. I was already a little nerd, and they wanted me to get the proper experience. I loved every second of it. Being a girl, I naturally loved Leia. She's strong and savvy. But I wanted to a Jedi more than anything. I wasn't any good at public speaking or leading, so I couldn't compare to her.

There were no female Jedis in the orignal trilogy. Then you catch little glimpses of them in the prequels, but they are always in the backgrounds. We were given Padme, who was similar to Leia. But she still didn't fill that hole in my young heart. So I had to pretend.

As I started to get into video games, I found the single greatest game. Jedi Knight: Jedi Academy. It was everything I ever wanted. It was the first game where I could make my own character and not play as the standard male hero. So I made my strong Twi'lek girl with her purple lightsaber. It was also the first game I played where your choices influenced the game and you had multiple endings. It was seriously everything I dreamed that Star Wars could be.

I just wanted the chance for a young girl, like me, to have adventures with the Force. Yesterday, I finally got to see it. I'm dying for the next one. I was so nervous it wouldn't be good, but it was what I had wanted. I have a few minor issues, yet they didn't stop me from loving every second of it. I was clapping and shouting in the theater with all the others. I want more of Rey and Finn and Poe. I want all the spin-offs.

Most of all, I'm finally happy that me, and all the other girls, finally get to see the adventure I always dreamed about having,

My Brain is Turning to Pudding

But in a good way! Because today was semi-momentous. I finally got a response from my top choice of an agent. While not a request for the full manuscript, she did suggest some revisions. After that, she'll gladly take another look at Our Fathers.

So yay! It's not a total rejection! Her comments have lined up with the other rejections I have gotten in the past two months. I knew the first chapter needed some major work. But this is progress! I have potential!

Every little bit of good news is enough for me to celebrate. Hope is always good. I know what I need to do, and now I have major encouragement.

My time will be primarily focused on the rewrites then, but keeping up with Resurrected Thief too. I might drive myself to the brink of madness, but I think I can do it. I want to send them both out in the beginning of 2016, and I really think I can do it. So we write and write and write.

Never stop!

"I found him to be unlikable"

Speaking from a shared experience, that is the one of the most annoying critiques an author can receive. First of all, what does it matter? There are plenty of unlikable people in the world. They still can be interesting and compelling.

Someone once said that about Bryan and I hesitated. I didn't want you to like him at first. He's rude, selfish, and immature. He's just starting to grow out of it as the first book progresses. Not everyone is a sweet and valiant hero from the first page. One of the major points of The Resurrected Thief is exploring his reluctance to do anything he doesn't want to. In the end, all his decisions but one are based on selfish motives. Honestly, Bryan doesn't quite loose his stubborn streak. by the end of the entire series. I'm not saying he's a bad person, but he has some major flaws.

We all do, and that's what makes the characters human. I don't think it would make for a good book anyway. I wanted both the reader and Bryan to share in the dilemma of not knowing what step to take next. Stay home or carry on? He's a fickle man, and it contrasts so much with Esther. She knows exactly what she wants to do and how to do it. In some ways, she's just as stubborn as Bryan. She's not without her dark secrets, of course. However, Thomas is an open book. Such three different personalities cause a lot of inner conflict. Their relationships with each other are just as important as catching a killer.

I want readers to care about what happens. Yes, liking the character helps but it isn't necessary. Their goals should be compelling, and I hope I've succeeded in that.

Why can't I stop editing!

For someone who complains about it, I take a lot of time to edit and edit and edit. Technically, the books are done. A lot of shorts are done. But my Muse fails to agree with me. She keeps nagging about little things here and there. I doubt she'll stop even after the books are on the shelves!

I've been submitting the agents, and then using the waiting period to edit some more. I just don't know how to stop myself. I really should. I guess the previous rejections have it stuck in my head that it's not good enough.

In the end, I'm happy with what I wrote. I'm in love with this book. That's what matters, right? Everyone knows agents and editors make their own tweaks once they get the book. I guess I'm just trying to get ahead of that? Tolkien was the same way.

One of these days, I'll find a way to cut myself off. Maybe just not today...

WIP Wednesday!

Still chugging away on edits. The end is (somewhat) in sight! At this rate, it'll be done by mid-December. Let's hope the muse keeps on agreeing with me.

Fun fact! This scene was actually the third one I outlined when I began this novel. I was still figuring out the quirks of Bryan's personality and he decided to have a lovely chat while sailing to Egypt. It was a bit long winded at first, but we've all come a long way since then.

Here's today's tidbit of new words:

“Perhaps we should speak with your cousin to confirm,” he retorted.

“He would agree that there is something much larger at play here,” Esther resumed speaking in a harsh tone of voice. Before he could continue arguing, she pressed one of the heavier books into his hand. 

The Gas Lit Future

Further thoughts on my plans for 2016. First, I need to find a better way to balance multiple projects at once. Maybe assign certain days of the week for each one? This is the schedule I just wrote for myself:

Submit Resurrected Thief to agents
Reformat the prequel serial for Esther
Finish The Ghost Circus
Write more of Bryan in Denmark
Start The Unbound Specter
Introduce Violet, the twins, and the Irish changeling to the short fiction
Cases with James and Esther
Does Thomas need a backstory?
--Spend some time on Our Fathers and Epic Fantasy

So what does all that mean?

The first should be obvious. Since most of the submission process involves waiting for an answer, that won't be too hard.

Esther's origin started as a jumble of short stories, but has worked its way into a great idea for serial fiction. The trick is finding someone who agrees and wants to publish it that way. I have a suspicion it might be easier with the rising popularity of the serial format. I just may end up self publishing them through something like Patreon or Kindle.

Since novellas are still popular, I want to seize on that trend and finish up The Ghost Circus. It's about halfway finished. But that schedule is also dependent on when the publisher I want opens its doors for novellas again.

At the same time, I want to start writing more than the prologue to the second book. If I manage to snag an agent or publisher, I want to provide them with a sequel soon instead of waiting until I finish a bunch of jumbled shorts. It's fully outlined, so may prove to be a fast write.

I also have plenty of ideas for other mysteries with the Hawke men, but don't know how much of a priority that should be in comparison to writing novels. Right now, the Muse says hold onto them to provide filler between the larger books. We have to keep producing a steady stream of fiction!

More books obviously mean more characters. Violet, the twins, and the Irish changeling are ones I've started to dabble with already. It could lead to a string of short stories or novellas. I have no idea yet.

Similarly, I don't know how much writing should be dedicated to Thomas. I had intended him to be a man without a complicated history. Esther and Bryan are supposed to lead him into all the adventures. But I don't want him to be a neglected character. Who knows what will happen on that front. The Muse is silent, despite Thomas being one of her favorite characters.

Finally, I should probably spend some time with my Non-Gaslight projects. Again, submissions for Our Fathers should be fairly simple. I want to return to epic fantasy so I'm not limiting myself to murder taking place in the 1880s. Unless the Muse comes up with something other than a vague two sentence idea, or lets me write everything else quickly, this is how 2016 will be playing out.

Happy Pre-Thanksgiving!

I hope everyone is enjoying the fleeting quiet before the mad rush of the holiday. Enjoying those spare moments before you have to start cooking that massive turkey and the countless side dishes. Not that I'm complaining. I always have fun when cooking with my family. Except that last year, the onions finally decided to attack and I can't chop them without tears blinding me.

Sadly, cooking does take away time from writing. I attempted one year to bring the laptop into the kitchen with me. It did not end well. The holiday break is coming as I try to finish up editing a rather difficult scene. Perhaps two days of no writing will be good. Then I can return and vanquish this block.

Part of the issue, is that I'm distracted by planning for the future. I have a detailed writing schedule already set up for 2016. As ever, it's flexible to change. I really want to get Our Fathers and Resurrected Thief out there, and then focus on my other new projects. I keep thinking about ideas for a serialized novel, plus about four unrelated fantasy epics. Then of course come all the sequels. I have a sneaking feeling that 2016 might be busier than 2015.

But I'm thankful for my writing. I'm happiest when I'm writing. I'm inspired by the ever growing mountain of new ideas. Once this turkey is out of the way, the Muse and I must get back to climbing!

The Edits Never Stop

Despite the end in sight, it sometimes feels like I'll never be finished editing any of my books. So much to change, to add, to cut, to reorder.

I forgot how jumbled the journey to Egypt was for our poor heroes. Ten days of being trapped on a boat with nothing but your fears and a bunch of books. At least it's a much more exciting voyage this time. Plus, it leads into some of my favorite scenes.

Despite that, I must resist the temptation to skip ahead. Doing that is what left me a messy scene and even messier notes. I must press on!

December is always crazy in the publishing world. A lot of places open to queries and submissions just before the holidays. If all goes well, I can send queries to everyone I want to. I just can't stop writing.

WIP Wednesday!

Editing went very well today. To date, we've added 20,897 words to Resurrected Thief. With the changes to the ending, I suspect this might be longer than I initially thought. But it's better, and that's what counts!

“Have you had the pleasure of reading about the missing mummy?” Bryan’s voice held no amusement as he flicked the newspaper at Thomas. He fumbled to catch it with his one free hand; several of the interior pages slipped out and landed on the ground.

            “You’ll have to forgive me. I haven’t slept,” Thomas mumbled as he knelt over to gather the loose pages. 

The Tricks of Editing

Never ever EVER stop in the middle of editing. Don't write vague notes for yourself in the margins, and then return to those notes months later. The train of thought you attempted to scribble will be long gone.

This is also why people suggest finishing writing the entire book before editing. I was never good at that. The Muse comes up with an idea for chapter seven while I'm writing chapter twelve. The Muse knows nothing but bouncing around. We are working on fixing that.

This current scene is all over the place, as are my old notes. We're slowly getting back on track, which is excellent. And the edits are ahead of schedule. This sequence was troublesome from the very beginning, but it's coming along. It's important for the plot, but is missing something. Maybe the Muse will bounce back and tell me what that something is today.

Wouldn't that be nice!

WIP Wednesday!

Edits are about halfway done! We're are chugging along ahead of schedule, which is fantastic. More so because I suspect the edits of the end will take longer since I made a lot of changes.

Here's some more exciting new scenes from The Resurrected Thief:

"He left this one alive,” Bryan sighed while squinting at the small wound across the guard’s brow. Without ceasing her frantic movements, Esther tossed him a small handkerchief. The scent of lavender wafted through Bryan’s nose as he pressed it against the bloody gash. 

WIP Wednesday!

(I just realized it's not actually Wednesday. Oops.)

Edits and rewrites mean the word count rises very very slowly. But, since I've begun I've added nearly 12,000 new words! Here are some of them.

“The man lost his arm, not his life,” Bryan scoffed, while Esther lowered her head. A laugh threatened to emerge from his throat. Instead, he gritted his teeth until his jaw ached. 

Plenty of Changes

Edits on The Resurrected Thief are coming along nicely. I'm about 1/3 finished. However, the biggest thing for me is all the re-writes. I don't mind doing them. Sometimes they can be enjoyable. It just takes up a lot of time as you try to smash together the original concept and the new ideas, or just do everything over from scratch.

The structure of The Resurrected Thief and the entire series has undergone some changes since I started writing. First, the ending is completely different. Same villain, but a new resolution. It works better within the overarching themes, which have also changed slightly. Plus, there a few scenes which are down right terrible. Two men talking about college times while a mummy attacks? Not good at all!

I also have a tendency to write scenes out of order, and then reassemble into the first draft. Rewrites fix all those awkward and clunky transitions. In the end, the entire book is a much better read. 

If I didn't spend all that time rewriting, the final book would be long winded and jarring. No one wants to read something like that.